Hello, you.
This spring feels different. Its energy is really getting to me. I feel a restlessness in my soul. But, not restlessness in a bad way, however. It’s more of a gathering, building energy of excitement, possibility, and movement. All of that energy has spilled out into my life this past week as I took some serious action in all sorts of ways in my personal life. I found myself making important decisions, engaging in tough conversations, having meetings - all pushing me and guiding me forward into this new era, this new season of my life. It’s as if there was literally a sudden shift and burst of energy from within me as April began. And, no matter if I was faced with something tough or something exciting, I felt indescribably inspired and empowered to act. Almost as if I could not not act. As if the energy of spring had taken over my body and I just surrendered to it all, letting it all just rise up from within me and bubble over into my life.
Now, I gotta be honest with you, if I had to rank the seasons, spring would be at the bottom of my list. I will always be an autumn girl - drawn to all things dark and moody and cozy. The inward, downward season seems to fit me better. And, for me, life is meant to be lived slowly, each moment savored and felt deeply, filled with a sense of magic and mystery. All things easily and deeply associated with the autumnal months. The muted, earthy colors of autumn are the colors of my life, no matter the season. Surrendering to the dark comes easy to me. It feels like coming home, settling down, and anchoring myself deep into my soul, my ancestors, and the earth. So, the darker half of the year suits my soul and will always be my home.
But there’s something about this spring that is different. Even in my dark and moody soul, I am drawn to the light and energy of April more than perhaps ever before. As the blossoms and buds and blooms slowly begin to appear, I feel deeply, magically aligned with their energy, almost as if I am experiencing the energy of spring awakening in my soul, which leads me to wonder - have I never surrendered to the light before?
Now, of course I have enjoyed the light half of the year all of my life. I have basked in the sun’s warmth and heat. I’ve soaked in the magical hope of sunrises and sultry glow of sunsets. I’ve loved seeing the beauty of the earth as she is filled with bright, vibrant colors and teams with life after the winter. But, for all of these observations and appreciations, I’ve never really felt in sync with spring. I’ve never felt deeply aligned with the season of renewal and rebirth. I’ve understood it intellectually and theologically. I’ve celebrated it and honored it with traditional gatherings and rituals. But, perhaps I’ve never truly lived it. Perhaps I’ve never surrendered my soul to the energy of light and rebirth.
This spring is different, though.
Filled with all of this boundless energy of life, I feel called to start over right now. I feel like reinventing myself and so much of my life. There are many changes in my life on the horizon, but this feeling I have goes much deeper than just the changes that will come as this year unfolds. Actually, with each season and with each year, we all experience changes - both, planned, unplanned, welcomed, and unwelcome. And the changes that I am feeling now, the new beginnings that are sprouting in my life, are giving me all the vibes of a rebirth, a reset, a restart.
This calling to start over comes from a deep inner knowing that something new is being born this spring. Something that will change my outer life, but more importantly, will change my inner life as well. It is the embodiment of the dreams and visions I had way back last autumn. It is aligning my everyday life with the idea and calling of how I am meant to live. It is my evolution and growth being made manifest as I embark on a new, higher, deeper journey.
And, with this soul-knowing, this alignment with the energy of spring, and my natural energy rising into action, I feel like I need a bit of time to let all of this (whatever this actually is) alchemize in my everyday life.
So, I am taking a bit of action when it comes to the Wild Soul Collective.
I feel very drawn to redesigning this space and redefining how I write, what I write, and when I write. I don’t know exactly how quite yet, and that’s why I need a bit of time - to act and test and try out different ways of showing up here.
As I surrender to the energy of spring this year and embrace the changes happening in my life, I need time and space to be in my life, acting and living fully in the moments of each day. I need time to make changes and to make the plans and lists and dreams I’ve had into my reality. I need to be able to focus on tending to this garden of my future and growing into this new era of my life.
With that said, I think that, for the foreseeable future (or perhaps until autumn when my energy turns inward and downward again), I want to move these weekly letters of seasonal energy, oracle card guidance, and podcasting to two times a month. One on the 1st day of each month and one at the midpoint of each month. If I have something more to say at any other time, I will of course write a letter to you on Substack.
A part of me feels wonders - what is wrong with me? Why can’t I follow through on the intentions I made back at the beginning of the calendar year of publishing a letter and a podcast every week? But, then, I remember that the beginning of the calendar year was in the middle of the darkest, quietest, most restful part of the year. Perhaps those intentions were only ideas, dreams, thoughts, musings made during those cozy, silent, winter nights.
Now that the natural beginning of the cycle of life has arrived with the season of spring, the real new year has begun and everything is born again. And I am certain that that is exactly why I am feeling everything that I am feeling right now. With this sense of newness, the reality of what is being born begins to grow.
In the meantime, I am doubling-down on my writing and reading, giving myself more time and space to create a sense of balance between crafting and publishing quality content for you, and mindfully consuming the inspiring, innovative, and thoughtful content that my fellow Substack-ers create.
I want to write quality letters to you, that are inspiring, personal, and documentary. But, I also want to live and grow and create memories and experiences out in the world. I want to use all of this wild, beautiful energy of spring to help me take action in living my life in rhythm with the seasons. Because that is what informs and inspires what I create and what messages I have to share. And, for me, at least this spring, finding the time and space to do all of that once a week is just too much.
So, I’m just going to surrender to it all. The light, the energy, the beauty of the earth, the rebirth of my soul, the desire to dance, create, celebrate, and take action. And, come autumn, all of the action, work, growth, and life that I have deeply and fully lived during these next 4-5 months of light will make my surrender to the dark the perfect way to return home, rest my bones, embrace mystery, and settle into the liminal wisdom of the cold, dark months once again.
For now, though, I turn toward the week ahead and breathe in the message of the WALKING STAFF card. A message of witchy magic. The walking staff, or stick, is a tool that is used to guide and support us on our journey. And, as I journey into this week, deeper into April, I believe that my walking staff is my intuition. These are the deep whispers of my soul, the silent messages I receive in the buds of the trees and the clouds passing by in the sky. My intuition leads me and guides me onward this spring, inspiring me to know when to take action and when to anchor myself in quiet solitude.
What are you feeling as April unfolds? How are you experiencing the energy of this month? Are you connecting with the feeling of a new beginning or a rebirth? If so, what is being reborn in your life? What is coming alive within you?
Ponder this all as you experience and observe and feel the earth calling you back to life.
Until next time, my friend, get out there and soak in life this spring. Love and light to you.
xoxo. liz.
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